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Saturday, July 18, 2009
::Tough 3 MONTHS::
Today,i am glad that one of my problems are showing good response...
JK thanks...It's been a tough Three months for me really...
To loose someone you Love is replaceable...
But a Friend is never replaceable...
Loosing both is already hard on me...
Hope you understand my issues...
There are so many other things in my mind right now...
This are all my personal problems in which i have to solve it myself...
One thing i learnt is to keep my problem to myself...
You will never know who your friend is...
You will never know who your enemy is...
You will never know who the imposter is...
After yesterday incident,my stress level went up and i have worst migraine ever...
I did not sleep on thursday and yesterday i close my eyes for like 2 hours...
Today my back pain get worst again...haiz...
Physically my health is not that good...
Mentally my mind is confused...
Emotionally i am very sensitive...
Today i have the 3rd person that said "You are going into state of Depression"
If one day that really happen...i don't know what to do...
Sometimes when we listen to other people's problems...
We can always give them advice...
However if we really are in the situation,i don't think we can cope with it...
I always tell myself to decide base on logic and feeling...
Now...both logic and feeling are failing me...
Now i am on the verge of just swollowing anything that can make me sleep...
I still have a few here and there...
b3z
Today,i am glad that one of my problems are showing good response...
JK thanks...It's been a tough Three months for me really...
To loose someone you Love is replaceable...
But a Friend is never replaceable...
Loosing both is already hard on me...
Hope you understand my issues...
There are so many other things in my mind right now...
This are all my personal problems in which i have to solve it myself...
One thing i learnt is to keep my problem to myself...
You will never know who your friend is...
You will never know who your enemy is...
You will never know who the imposter is...
After yesterday incident,my stress level went up and i have worst migraine ever...
I did not sleep on thursday and yesterday i close my eyes for like 2 hours...
Today my back pain get worst again...haiz...
Physically my health is not that good...
Mentally my mind is confused...
Emotionally i am very sensitive...
Today i have the 3rd person that said "You are going into state of Depression"
If one day that really happen...i don't know what to do...
Sometimes when we listen to other people's problems...
We can always give them advice...
However if we really are in the situation,i don't think we can cope with it...
I always tell myself to decide base on logic and feeling...
Now...both logic and feeling are failing me...
Now i am on the verge of just swollowing anything that can make me sleep...
I still have a few here and there...
b3z
Friday, July 17, 2009
::THE DAY MY HEARTBEAT STOPPED...FOR A MOMENT::
17/07/2009 18:30
An SMS beep in...
My worst nightmare...
Even though i expecting this for very long...
Haiz...once again i am in the middle...
Eventually it will be about me...
Questions after questions bombarded...
It ends(temporary) One hour later...
b3z
17/07/2009 18:30
An SMS beep in...
My worst nightmare...
Even though i expecting this for very long...
Haiz...once again i am in the middle...
Eventually it will be about me...
Questions after questions bombarded...
It ends(temporary) One hour later...
b3z
Thursday, July 16, 2009
::THE MASK IN EVERYBODY::
The true fact of life is,you think you know someone very well but there is always somethings that are only know by oneself.Yes i am one of them,however i don't like to keep things hanging in the air.I prefer to be asked for enlightenment to a doubt that others have about me.Most of the time people would just shoot blank ammunition and hoping to hit the bull's eyes.Yup it happened to me.I did not realise that they are actually lying.Lying to me to get the truth out of me.This to me is a cheap shot way,truly no respect given to me at all.When ever i use the word "Yes i already know" .It really mean i really knows.Some use that sentence just to get more out of me.
I really very disappointed when i am telling the truth,nobody want to believe however if i lied,they would believe it.I was like "Wow must i lie my whole life to satisfy people?".This reminded me of an advertisement on TV about CLASS95.The one when the girl was taking her class 3 lesson.Let people here what they want to hear.I am not a liar,yet people call me a liar just because i am telling the truth.
b3z
The true fact of life is,you think you know someone very well but there is always somethings that are only know by oneself.Yes i am one of them,however i don't like to keep things hanging in the air.I prefer to be asked for enlightenment to a doubt that others have about me.Most of the time people would just shoot blank ammunition and hoping to hit the bull's eyes.Yup it happened to me.I did not realise that they are actually lying.Lying to me to get the truth out of me.This to me is a cheap shot way,truly no respect given to me at all.When ever i use the word "Yes i already know" .It really mean i really knows.Some use that sentence just to get more out of me.
I really very disappointed when i am telling the truth,nobody want to believe however if i lied,they would believe it.I was like "Wow must i lie my whole life to satisfy people?".This reminded me of an advertisement on TV about CLASS95.The one when the girl was taking her class 3 lesson.Let people here what they want to hear.I am not a liar,yet people call me a liar just because i am telling the truth.
b3z
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
::What went wrong again?::
Past 2 weeks i been noticing that my hand have been trembling every now and then...
No one notice until today...
We were at the smoking point...
VT past me 8piece of 2dollars notes...
I took a few more piece of 2dollars notes from my wallet and want to put it all together...
half folded...
SH saw me having difficulty trying to flip the notes for counting...
After 5 attempt then i manage to flip the first piece...
"Eh brother what happen to you?" SH asked me
"I have no idea,been having this for about 2 weeks" i replied
"I think its because of your medication bro,you better see your Doctor again"
"Maybe the pain killer is too strong for you"
All this while,ex-Sayang was there too listening.
I told SH that that pain killer have side effect...i have terrible migraine the morning after...
SH said "Confirm the medicine is too strong for you"
Haiz...what happen??
My health is deteriorating...Slowly but surely...
Maybe my worst nightmare is coming closer...
Beyond 3Zero...An uphill task...How far can you go?
Once you drop,its gonna be hard for you to get up again...
b3z
Past 2 weeks i been noticing that my hand have been trembling every now and then...
No one notice until today...
We were at the smoking point...
VT past me 8piece of 2dollars notes...
I took a few more piece of 2dollars notes from my wallet and want to put it all together...
half folded...
SH saw me having difficulty trying to flip the notes for counting...
After 5 attempt then i manage to flip the first piece...
"Eh brother what happen to you?" SH asked me
"I have no idea,been having this for about 2 weeks" i replied
"I think its because of your medication bro,you better see your Doctor again"
"Maybe the pain killer is too strong for you"
All this while,ex-Sayang was there too listening.
I told SH that that pain killer have side effect...i have terrible migraine the morning after...
SH said "Confirm the medicine is too strong for you"
Haiz...what happen??
My health is deteriorating...Slowly but surely...
Maybe my worst nightmare is coming closer...
Beyond 3Zero...An uphill task...How far can you go?
Once you drop,its gonna be hard for you to get up again...
b3z
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
:: To Find Someone To Love Is Not As Difficult As To Get Someone To Love You Back::
14 years to be exact...Yes. 14 years ago was the last time it happen.
The first time was in the year 1994,i was just 17.
She was this sweet,cute chinese girl.I tried.I failed.
Then come along this decent,soft spoken,good manners,sweet and pretty smile malay girl.
I tried and i tried and i tried...i failed..1995.
April 23rd 2009 , 14 years after,the feeling came again...
However, i was very dissapointed with myself,
This time i made the wrong choice...wasted alot of effort...
This time i hate myself for having this feeling...
To have this feeling again after 14years and get the wrong person is totally heartbroken...
I don't know when it will happen again...
I hope the 4th time will be a serious 2way traffic...
L.O.V.E I.S B.L.I.N.D
it's true,it's true
b3z
14 years to be exact...Yes. 14 years ago was the last time it happen.
The first time was in the year 1994,i was just 17.
She was this sweet,cute chinese girl.I tried.I failed.
Then come along this decent,soft spoken,good manners,sweet and pretty smile malay girl.
I tried and i tried and i tried...i failed..1995.
April 23rd 2009 , 14 years after,the feeling came again...
However, i was very dissapointed with myself,
This time i made the wrong choice...wasted alot of effort...
This time i hate myself for having this feeling...
To have this feeling again after 14years and get the wrong person is totally heartbroken...
I don't know when it will happen again...
I hope the 4th time will be a serious 2way traffic...
L.O.V.E I.S B.L.I.N.D
it's true,it's true
b3z
Monday, July 13, 2009
Once again i say :
All i need is a little bit of effort,Even if it means you are just PRETENDING...
Tough?WHATEVER!!
Another day to go through...
Annoyed & Irritated...
Wish for a better day..
b3z
All i need is a little bit of effort,Even if it means you are just PRETENDING...
Tough?WHATEVER!!
Another day to go through...
Annoyed & Irritated...
Wish for a better day..
b3z