::Wishing for a better day::



I am physically and mentally tired...

Rumors spreading like wildfire...

Tried to defend myself...but it get worst...

2009, year of bad lucks...

Struggle in my first relationship in 14 years...

It lasted a month before it was extended for another 6 weeks with a 4 weeks break...

I got "kicked" out of my work place due to a certain "security" reason...

Apparently they think i am threat to that location...

My security clearance was not cleared...

Everybody around me been lying to me...

They know who they are...

Hypocrites...

I need help...

Past weeks my health hasn't been that good either...

Twicthing of left hand and constant chest pain...

Slip disc waiting to happen soon...

Had a slight fall on 24th August and been in pain since then...

If i had an accident...would you come and visit me?

If i die....will you visit my grave?

I can't see myself reaching 35 at this current situation...
I've lost the will power...

I've lost everything that i want...

Enduring physical and internal pain...

b3z